from the vaguely clichéd drug-habits getting
words kept under the bed you may have read
heading into decades as if they were on tap you’d
to the thought about it created out of it & ensuing
you often imagined you would die early not
it’s not funny anymore to wing things) not that
even leave the years trickling away while you
a day of meetings & functions & engagements
discussion of the absurd: life just never equating

expectations ever were a thing to take notice of
saying it just won’t last & now you find yourself
camus a long time back & filed away the roving
brush your teeth & get an early night (having
to this at least, which might have other ramifications
around just a niggling premonition a tickle
to reify in that book of philosophies quotes &
now you’re abashed looking for a conclusion