idk

never give all the heart, for love is a blabbering occluding supercluster,

blocking sense in its infinite varieties while he that made this

(knowing full well all the costs) comes forth at you: dynamic in person

but also, sure, a sub-classed article, broaching forth like

ice in clipped snowclouds… impressive, but vague…

 

i made the news once but never gave all the heart i stood there

looking ambient, and blank, thinking of how some cat-clawed

painting of a great grandfather hangs in the parlour, gathering dust

despite the wealth that made this, all of this around you

 

in the future we will become, deaf a dumb too.

barnacles on rocks, brief & dreamy & other-words with

other associated narratives (so, it seems, all for love)

but in whatever cleft of ocean you reside, remember,

(in the not-quite-ironic words of he that died making this)

remember, never give                   anything.

entering

it’s an odd thing to delve into. there’s a verse, a chorus, then a middle-8 section (nowhere near the middle), another verse & chorus, a guitar solo then another couple of choruses. it’s also at quite a speed to jam all this in together. is this the way we pleasure ourselves – quickly, partially-effectively, in an altogether non-standard manner? turning the curiosity of attraction into pop?

but for me it was always all about the meaning below the entendre, underneath the sex, the hands reaching but never quite touching. the desperation. i apologise for the mic that couldn’t quite handle what i wanted to do vocally with only one take. but i’ve always been about spitting it out. so to speak or write.

 

my guitar / yours

there’s more sadness than happiness making up a life. if pressed i’d put the ratio at 70/30. but then maybe some of that 70% is simply emptiness, or boredom. it’s hard to tell. you choose what to remember though. i’ve been watching a lot of long-form tv shows that involve detectives and crime. the lyrics in this track were meant to echo that and use the language as an investigative lens, repeating the images of urgently garbled radio squad car directions, and fervent leading questions posed in stark interview room (usually a green palette). but i don’t think any of that comes through. not really.

town b

20160707 murrumbidgeemy favourite sandy beach disappeared a while ago. now a vast expanse of mud. i mentioned it to julie & she said that’s just what rivers do. the river has taken away the beach, & at some point in the future it will replace it, maybe. maybe the same, maybe different.

there’s nothing metaphorical in this it was just some words we said to each other to pass time to fill the emptiness before other things.

twelve months into this & still learning.

across the reserve

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these unknown vantages are

mine alone every thatch is a mark

of experience a weathering of trouble &

doubt if the muted palette is the world

each picket a page number & most

stray strokes evident measures of defiance

i’ll avoid place after place for all the reasons

sidestep obdurate satellite towns, my mind

ramshackle & functioning still as fire     but

let’s figure on leaving that matrix secure

on a wood-fired early afternoon

secure as fiction

 

artwork – ‘across the reserve’ by matilda julian

whisper my name

Remapping 1 - 'Whisper My Name'

 

each stitch was a body wound

you felt & traced years into     like

an antique camcorder you peer

low & hard & inside

 

your fingerprints are all

over yourself in the end shaping

shapeliness beyond recognition

a wine bottle of veiled origins

 

we were known by the colour

of our hair but it’s always fleeting

speech marks effective tattoos

 

you’ll creep from the gloom like

a stationary china doll then

nothing will happen then

actions feel too simple too

open to interpretation then

 

artwork – ‘whisper my name’ by sarah mcewan

held

i drove through the night with nothing

else to think about / the speed-trap zone

into cowra & a massive roo stands counting trucks,

mulling over the headlong leap into something /

your overbite is now a varicose watermark

to my neck, this temporary tattoo appliqued

with a steady hand though, each tooth

a bright pinpoint of intent / rear-view mirrors

reveal the past or the future they just don’t

care i mean / watch my thinking dissolve

into a silly night-time daydream fusion &

there are outcomes dotting the sky, each

meteor shower line directing touch /

then / my cat angry at the lit window /

photos of you into the morning

castles

kind of linking up your intensity even tho

it’s subject to being chill: can we please anyone?

six lines such abject bullshit: you tell me how to touch you

 

it’s enough of a new thing (& no you don’t have to do it now)

 

i walked out of my childhood house aching

for the hour home, to talk again